Things have been quiet the past few weeks (maybe you noticed, maybe you didn't) and today I'm sharing why.
I could tell you that business has been GROWING like crazy. That I've been super busy with new health coaching clients, UHP sessions, private yoga classes and my work with Robyn and Your Healthiest You.
I could tell you that I've been spending more time with friends and family and in nature.
I could tell you all these things and they would be true, but they wouldn't be the truth on why I haven't written.
The truth? I've been feeling less than sparkly the past few weeks.
A few vacation pounds have left me feeling less-than-stellar in my yoga pants, and I've seen some old, not-so-supportive habits around food creep back in. As a result, that super critical voice in my head has been louder than usual because I think I should "know better" already.
When I don't feel like I'm my brightest, most confident and best self, I hide. I get quiet on social media, I wear baggier clothes, I cancel plans with friends.
I think "Why would anyone take my advice?" when I don't have this whole health and self love thing figured out myself.
The pressure to be perfect is something I know I put on myself. I know that you don't read my blog or follow me on Instagram because you think that I'm perfect. I know that there is no such thing as perfect.
However, the desire to be perfect is still something that I struggle with on a daily basis. Most of the time I feel like I'm winning the battle - that the yoga and meditation and mindfulness have "healed me" from self critical thoughts. But I still have my days (or weeks) when I'm not. And I'm trying to learn to be okay with that.
Life is a wild ride and if there is one thing that I know for sure it's that there will ALWAYS be ups and downs. Some days you will feel super strong and sexy and smile at yourself in the mirror, other days you'll feel like a blob who can't leave the couch. Some days you'll eat just the right foods, and other days you'll drown in a jar of almond butter (that's not just me, right??). It doesn't matter if you have a six pack or 60 pounds to loose - we all go through good times and not so good times.
I don't have a quick tip or lesson for you today [although re-reading this, there are probably some lessons in here ;) ]. I just wanted to share. To out myself. To let you know that even with all the work I've done, I'm still a work in progress. We all are.
And you know what? That's perfectly okay.